A Creepy Halloween Poem By Yours Truly

Ohmigosh, Halloween is only a day away!

In the wake of my insane excitement for one of my favorite holidays, I’ve written a creepy, gothic poem that I hope you guys enjoy! I also hope it freaks you out a bit.

Just to reiterate what I’ve said before, I’m not goth! To quote Lydia Deetz from Beetlejuice, I myself am strange and unusual and this is reflected in my writing.  So in case you’re picturing me like this:

STAHP.

Here’s the poem.

“Flesh and Steel”

The day I tried to laugh

And blood fell off my lips from the effort

Was when I knew I wasn’t right

So I looked inside and saw the machine

 

It whirred and smoked and roared and hissed

Greased by blood that was not red

— but black — black like oil coursing through my veins

 

And then I saw my heart hanged on a chain

One side was beating crimson, while the other

— I almost could not bear to look —

was cold and steel

Draining all my light away, choking it

with what I could not feel

 

I know, I know, it’s dark.  But I like creepy stuff and it’s almost Halloween! I’ll give you a poem about unicorns next time.

Thanks for reading and have a happy and safe Halloween! Let me know what you think about the poem in the comments below!

 

100 Things That I’ve Learned

One of my grandfather’s favorite things to tell me was that you learn something new every day.  I believe in that, but have found that life only teaches us when we pay attention.  I’m only seventeen years old, but lately I’ve been trying to listen to life’s lessons.   Here are 100 things that I’ve learned so far.

1. Let yourself learn something new every day

2. God isn’t in the thunder and the lightning, but in the whispers of our hearts

3. Push yourself to do better

4. Don’t be too hard on yourself 

5. God, family, food 

6. Nobody likes to listen to the dream you had last night.  Nobody.  

7. Popcorn tastes incredible on hot dogs

8. Don’t let your mind wander if you can’t bring it back 

9. Your mom can be your best friend

10. So can your dad

11. Everything in moderation

12. Listen to new music

13. Make sure that who you are is who you want to be

14. Nobody else can do what you were meant to do

15. You are never, ever alone

16. Appreciate nature

17. Think 

18. Write it out

19. Read the classics.  

20. Read the new stuff. 

21. Just read a lot, in general 

22. The Rain Song by Led Zeppelin is the best song to cry to

23. Take a risk.  Take a chance.  Make a change.  

24. Give social media a break

25. Call your grandma

26. Learn the family stories 

27. Popularity is ridiculously overrated 

28. You don’t need a million “best” friends

29. Money isn’t everything, but it’s important

30. You can’t make big decisions by yourself.  Pray a lot 

31. Be well-rounded

32. Be generous

33. Be grateful always

34. But don’t be a jerk

35. Always check to see if you have something between your teeth after meals

36. Be kind to your waiter

37. Do NOT order Italian food at a non-Italian restaurant

38. Don’t do things halfway

39. Let your walls down

40. Being vulnerable is not the worst thing in the world

41. Apologize, even if the other person doesn’t

42. Don’t freak out if you feel like your teen years aren’t the “best of your life.”  The best is yet to come

43. It’s never as good as it seems, it’s never as bad as it seems 

44. Please, cut down on the selfies 

45. Be respectful and polite to everyone

46. But don’t be a doormat.  That’s bad 

47. There is only one you.  Therefore, you are unique.  Let it show

48. Keep your promises

49. It’s okay to be sad

50. “Lighten up, Francis” 

51. Laugh at yourself

52. Don’t laugh at other people.  Laugh near other people. (Just kidding)  

53. Get out of your comfort zone

54. Just breathe

55. Don’t set your expectations way up in space.  That’s a good way to get disappointed 

56. Keep your standards high, though

57. Don’t forget your sense of humor

58. Put an end to procrastination (insert obligatory procrastination joke here) 

59. Develop your personal style

60. THIS DOES NOT MEAN ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING GOES 

61. It’s OK to be a nerd

62. It’s OK to be a jock

63. It’s OK to be a prep 

64. It’s great to be yourself

65. You have a talent.  Find it

66. Introverts are not better than extroverts.  Extroverts are not better than introverts

67. If you love something, show it

68. Don’t base your life expectations on TV 

69. Be eclectic.  You can like The Civil Wars and Avenged Sevenfold at the same time

70. Don’t live in the past

71. Don’t live in the future

72. You don’t have to agree with everything

73. Avoid cliches.  (anyone else tired of the bacon thing?) 

74. Don’t be ignorant, but please, if you like a celebrity DON’T READ THEIR WIKIPEDIA BIO 

75. Be a good listener

76. RELAX

77. Believe in Santa Claus

78. Give your mom a hug when you wake up

79. Let suffering make you a better person

80. Little kids can teach you important lessons

81. BUTTERFLIES ARE TERRIFYING CLOSE UP – http://images3.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20121119015627/spongebob/images/thumb/7/79/Wormy_Butterfly_Close.jpg/640px-Wormy_Butterfly_Close.jpg

82. Write down your inside jokes so you don’t forget them

83. Give things and people a chance, for crying out loud

84. Don’t live just to be “in a relationship”

85. Video games are art (try The Last of Us, Journey, or Kingdom Hearts if you don’t believe me) 

86. Be humble

87. You are loved

88. Ask questions and find answers 

89. Just care

90. Be proud of yourself

91. Get excited

92. Face your fears

93. Silence is golden.  Unnecessary chattering is that old penny you saw in the gutter with gum stuck to it 

94. Separate opinion from fact 

95. Let yourself laugh

96. Let yourself cry

97. Punch apathy right in the kisser

98. Just say no to uggs

99. Your life is meaningful

100. Make it worth remembering 

– Julia

To My Fellow Overthinkers

I overthink.  I overthink EVERYTHING.  And if your thought process looks something like this…

Ok time to wake up gosh I’m starving but do we have any protein bars left oh great now what am I going to eat tomorrow morning and also I think they’re hurting my molars and geez is this zit ever going to go away my face looks like a butt and now I have to go to school with this on my face and will people notice or can I cover it up and why do people get zits anyway like why and now I’m at school and that guy is here OHMIGOSH he is attractive but what if Italk to him and he only listens to mumfordandsons or what if he’s secretly dating someone else or what if he’s not a Halloween person and why did he look at me that one time maybe I had something in my teeth but maybe he’ll give me flowers or buy me coffee tomorrow and we will live happily ever after and go on adventures wait where is he going I need to make my move or I’ll miss my chance and be forever alone!

…you might be able to relate.

I tend to overanalyze, overthink, or worry about the dumbest little things up to the biggest issues in my life.  Needless to say, it really sucks.  Some days I just want to unplug my brain but then I start thinking of a dystopian future society where people’s brains are plugged into a computer and one rebel unplugs himself and leads a movement to destroy the –

Wait, isn’t that The Matrix?

Anyway, I need to find a way to unplug myself from all of this unnecessary stress, which can be just as bad as Agent Smith (with the exception of awesome karate moves).  It effectively keeps me in my head ALL OF THE TIME and disconnected from the people I’m hanging out with.  So what can us overthinkers do? I have a few ideas.

First off, putting my thoughts and feeligs down in the form of blogging, poetry, or music really helps.  It’s like dumping all of those things racing through your brain in a positive way.  Getting those ideas out always leaves me clear-headed, and it also gives you a sense of pride when you put down something awesome.

Secondly, I find that doing something with my hands is great for focusing your mind.  Doing something like knitting, drawing, crafting, or even organizing gives you something to do that you don’t really have to think about so that the stuff in your head can run its course.  For me, it’s building LEGOs.  They’re like little puzzles that give your brain a workout and let it focus on something instead of randomly running from one thought to the next.  What? It’s cathartic, I’m telling you!

Lastly, sometimes you just need to talk it out.  Grab your mom, dad, sibling, close friend, or whoever you feel most comfortable with and get that crap off your chest! The worst thing you can do is keep that worry bottled up inside of you.  Telling somebody how you’re feeling or what you’re stressing about is one of the most liberating feelings in the world.  And don’t worry about sounding crazy.  Your family and friends won’t judge you and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with asking for help.  Don’t put pressure on yourself to know everything and have it all figured out! That’s just unfair.

So are you an overthinker? And if so, has this advice been at least a little bit helpful? Let me know in the comments! I don’t pretend to have it all figured out either, but I know how overthinking and anxiety can make your life seem really sucky! Trust me when I say this: it’s never, ever as bad as it seems and everything will be okay.  You are in my prayers.  Hang in there!

– Julia

My Pumpkin For Halloween This Year

Halloween is one of my favorite holidays, and every year without fail, my family and I carve pumpkins.  Since I have an obsessive-compulsive desire to go out of the box, I try to make my pumpkins different.  They usually end up as a reflection of my geekdom.  E.g., the pumpkin I ended up with this year.

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So Walter White isn’t very “halloweeny.”  I’m going to take his attitude and not really care what you guys think.  Heisenberg does what he wants.

Did I mention that I also painted a Castiel pumpkin? He’s adorbs.

Anyways, what I’m saying is that whether it’s your pumpkin or your Halloween costume, don’t be afraid to do what you want to do.  A close friend of mine was going as River Song (from Doctor Who) before she decided to go as Christine Daae from The Phantom Of The Opera.  Does she sound like she cares about what people think of her or the Halloween costume norms for our age? (these include slutty princess, slutty pirate, slutty witch, and, most bizarrely, slutty whale: http://www.ohgizmo.com/2013/10/08/sexy-version-of-bizarre-halloween-costumes/weird-sexy-halloween-costumes7/ …I don’t know either) My friend is comfortable with who she is and isn’t afraid to dress up as the characters that she loves.  And that’s awesome.  My girl cousin went as Optimus Prime one year.  Also awesome.  I’m not saying that any and all Halloween costumes will be instantly recognized or appreciated.  But if you love something, show it! Even if people don’t know who you are exactly, they’ll respect you for being an individual.  And if they don’t, well…

Are you going as something uniquely awesome this year? Let me know! Share your individuality in the comments! I love Halloween and I’d love to hear your costume ideas!

– Julia

Going On Vacation To An Amusement Park: Yet Another Presentation In GIFs

I LOVE going on vacation! Getting there can be a long and arduous task, but once you get to the amusement park/beach/city it makes it all worth it.  Let’s take a look at this process and fantasize about vacations that we will never go on (a trip to the Moon, anyone?) Today we’re focusing on amusement park trips!

So your parents tell you that you’re going on vacation and you’re like

And you immediately start shopping for clothes like

But packing them all is another thing and you’re like

Mr Bean Packing

So vacation day arrives and you have to wake up super early to leave like

And you have to wait FOREVER to check in with your airline like

And all of those airport security signs make you suspicious of everybody like

So you finally get to security and no matter how many times you’ve done it, walking through the metal detector thing makes you all nervous like

But when they clear you to go through you feel inappropriately triumphant like

So after making it through the entire airport you get on your flight and there’s that one annoying person who walks by you like

But you try to relax anyway up until the takeoff, and you’re all like

And once you get up in the air you try to distract yourself and read, but then you get airsick like

And you end up just sleeping through the flight like

But you finally get there and on the way to your hotel you’re like

You check in inside the lobby, and when you go up to your room and look in the mirror you look like

But once you freshen up a little you’re all like

So the next day you finally get to the park and you’re all like

And you speed off to your favorite ride like

And as you’re riding you’re filled with pure joy like

But later somebody asks you to ride the HUGE roller coaster with them and you’re like

But they make fun of you until you agree like

So you’re in line and your friend asks you if you’re ok and you’re like

You get to the car and the attendant straps you in like

And you’re FREAKING OUT like

And when the moment of doom hits and the roller coaster starts you’re all like

And you’re left at the mercy of this giant ride until the end like

So you eventually get off and you look like

And you’re on such a high that you walk away from the ride like an idiot like

And when your friend asks you if you liked it you’re just like

At the end of the day you and your siblings are bouncing off the walls like

So you go back to the hotel and throw up all of the cotton candy and ice cream you ate like

– Julia

 

 

 

My Poetry: Come Home Little Girl

Today I felt like sharing another of poems with you all! It’s a little long, but if you take the time to read it, I’d love to get some feedback!

“Come Home Little Girl” was a completely random thing that came to me at like 1 am…I get inspired at the weirdest times.  Feel free to interpret it as you like! Here’s another glimpse into the dark part of my imagination.

“Come Home Little Girl”

Once I knew a girl who got lost in her head

Dreaming up demons she did not know

Never knowing where to go

Come home, little girl, come home

 

Every day was a change in reflection

Daughter, liar, rebel, friend

Lover, dreamer, real, pretend

Come home, little girl, come home

 

And all at once her voices started screaming

Every painted face awake

She felt herself begin to break

Come home, little girl, come home

 

The girl I knew put on her veil

And smiling, buried her faces down

Deep in her skin, on dying ground

Come home, little girl, come home

 

I saw how easily her heart could change

How every time it stopped or broke

A new one rose from hazy smoke

Come home, little girl, come home

 

Year after year and she’s still at war

Where her voices and her faces rage

Some fight for freedom, some love their cage

Come home, little girl, come home

 

I once knew a girl who was lost in her head

I want to give a lamp to guide her

To rise above the selves inside her

But she’ll only light the pyre

Let it burn up in her fire

 

Little girl I used to know

Come home, little girl, come home

– Julia

October Friday Movie Night: Psycho

It’s the very first Friday Move Night of October, and throughout the month I’ll be featuring my favorite Halloween movies starring the creepiest, freakiest, scariest, kookiest, and spookiest characters around! Tonight’s movie is a classic slasher by the Master of Suspense himself, Mr. Alfred Hitchcock: Psycho!

Yikes! That picture gives me the willies.

While technically a slasher film, Psycho goes so much deeper into psychological horror than the genre is known for thanks to Hitchcock’s direction and Anthony Perkins performance as the mild-mannered Norman Bates.  When Marion Crane (played by Janet Leigh, mother of Jamie Lee Curtis from Halloween) pulls into the Bates Motel for the night, she encounters its owner and manager, Norman, who lives in the big creepy house up the hill.  He seems like a sweet guy, maybe a little nervous, but overall he kind of just needs a hug.  Right?  Without spoiling anything, we as the audience join Marion as she descends into the movie’s spiral of darkness and madness as we try to unravel the mystery of Norman and his enigmatic mother and it’s absolutely chilling.

All of the movie’s performances are incredible, but it’s hard to not place Anthony Perkins performance as Norman Bates among the greatest of all time.  He takes on many different shades as the movie progresses, and you can’t help but be spooked by his peculiar stuttering and way of speaking.

Scary movies aren’t particularly scary when they’re stupid, and Psycho is among the most intelligent that I’ve ever seen.  It blends straight-up slasher terror with psychological intrigue and three-dimensional characters that never fall into the tired horror cliches.  Psycho has few scenes of actual violence, but instead presents its scares through dialogue and its representation of madness, which is scary because it’s not far from reality.

In conclusion, Psycho is a movie that demands to be thought over after its powerful conclusion and leaves a lasting impression.  You won’t easily shake off the terror of the story…especially when you’re in the shower.

– Julia

The Writing Process: A Presentation in GIFs

If you couldn’t already tell from my previous posts, I love GIFs.  That being said, I decided to make another one featuring GIFs that highlights the super-fun writing process! *insert sarcastic thumbs-up here* Let’s get started!

One day you’re just sitting there like

When suddenly inspiration hits you like

So you rush to your computer like

And start typing like a crazy person like

Then you lose track of time until you fall asleep and you wake up like

And at work/school you can’t stop thinking about what you’ve written like

So you finally get home all excited and ready to write like

When suddenly writer’s block hits you like

And you sit there staring at the screen and panicking like

So you desperately type out something, anything, like

But when you read it back its bad and you’re just like

You convince yourself that you’re terrible and sit there like

And you brand yourself a failure like

So you don’t write for a while and spend your time procrastinating like

Until one day you buckle down and write something and it’s actually pretty good and you feel like

And you tell yourself that you’re going to stay motivated and keep writing like

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And when you finally finish it looks like

– Julia